To be or not to be....

To update, or not to update, that is the question. Well, not really sure what to write about. Only thing on my mind is just soccer, work, and resuming weight lifting, which i haven't done in like 3 weeks. Pretty tough for me today, as I struggled with weights I normally have control over. Guess that's what 3 weeks without working out can do to ya.

Now the next portion of this entry is just deciding what to write about. Memories? I have goods ones I haven't told yet. Maybe I can give another prep talk, and just lose my mind in this. Or I can just write random stuff. Like 1st thing that comes to mind. I dunno. Seems kinda risky for me, more entertaining for u guys though. I'll go wit that i guess.

Lets see...Listening to some Pink Floyd right now. Song is "Money". Kinda weird. A song about money. I mean come on, that's for people that are greedy or having financial problems. Eh.

That leads to my next point. Problems, everyone has them at some point. I don't think there is anyone in this world that hasn't had a problem, even if it's minor. Ha, minor, major, music keys. Speaking of music, band camp in last week of August. Sure is exciting to march. Lifting those legs up at a 90 degree angle with toes pointing down. Yeah...gotta love that. try that, while playing an instrument in ur mouth, in the cold temperatures. Piece of cake eh?

Is it hot today? I think so. I just walk out and I feel like I just walked into a burning building or something. Someone call the fire department! Speaking of which, I remember seeing some dude honk at a fire truck that was stationed with his sirens on. How stupid is he? Sad part is, nothing happened. Stupid #!*@.

Cursing, who needs it? It only makes situations worse and makes other's self esteem go down, and we don' want that, do we? It just makes the already punishing world less peaceful than it is. Come to think of it, there will never be complete peace in this world. So much greed, envy, hatred, jealousy and such. Leads to a thing called war. yeah...no complete peace eva. WE can try to make the best of it and try to make happy memories and events and such, but no peace forever. Nothing comes to granted.

A mind is a beautiful thing, isn't it? Capable of storing millions of units of information, memories, images we call dreams, pains we call headaches and more. Don't abuse it. It's a one of a kind. I guess it ur ticket to this world, kinda like ur heart. Things like drugs and alcohol will just destroy it. And then, bye bye to ur self-centered world. Never again to breathe the crisp air. Never again to step on the ground that was mother nature's gift to us. never again to feel anything, no emotions, no happiness, sadness, love, anger, and such. It's all just gone...like that. Who knows what happens after death. DO we really go to heaven? Hell? Is there really another life after this? MAybe another atmosphere? Maybe u'll be another species. Who knows? How do i even know this world isn't just a projection to me to fool my eyes and mind? How do I really know? I can't look into other minds and tell. I may just be having this one big whole dream. Life itself may be a dream. The dreams from some person..or thing's...mind. Wow, isn't a mind beautiful?

This whole racial thing..Why do the whites have to de superior. Wait, lemme rephrase that, why do they THINK they're superior over everyone. They think they we just chosen by God or something? It's F*$^in messed up. THinking they can just boss us minorities around to do the work for them, and then not give us credit for it. Telling u guys now, in a few years from now, minorities will populate more than half of the US. Then the whites will be minorites. Then who will be the bitches now? huh? who's gonna work at mcdonalds, collect the trash, be janitor, be the 1st ones at the front lines at war? huh??

Whew, I need to step out to the fresh air. Sorta...lightheaded...